Are We?

Loneliness is a tough enemy, in the depths of our loneliness, we can go from great heights to new lows we could never imagine. Some brilliant minds write great novels, unravel deep mysteries.

Others sing, others dance... some people find each other in a middle of a crowded room. They say misery loves company and in these trying times... Are we?

Spring is coming

This bear is coming out of hibernation... soon.

at my lowest point

Life is indeed hard

mistakes we make bite us in the ass...

lucky are the few who learn from it, but much like a moth we are indeed drawn to the fire.

The fire that burns our soul and leaves us scarred.

I just want to get it back, get back all that i have lost, all the things that I have taken forgranted.

I now bleed profusely, i have hurt people i hold dear and though i know i will never be forgiven, i am hoping against hope that my sins do not amount to who i really am.

I am nothing...

Breakup Season

These past few months, breakups have been aplenty... and much like the song "There's No Love in the Room" here are my summaries of what break-ups do to people.

For The Breakee

What is the Reason?
Everyone needs one for some stupid reason. And when you know you wont believe, you always stick to whats your version of the break-up anyway, right?

Could Have, Would Have
If i did this would he/she not left me? We all know this... do this, think this

Hanging On
We invest our lives in our relationships... and we for some strange reason cant just let go. We always think there is a chance. We ask anyone even in remote association details of whats going on, the maybe's of this life gets accumulated, remember though sometimes we waver on this "It Really Over", he/she is just being nice.

Erasing Memories
"Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" you do wish it was possible right? Because when you lose someone who you spent a lot of time with memories are everywhere, commutes, restos there everywhere!!!


To the Breaker

Hit the Target
If you don't love us anymore say it!!! Don't go we can be friends, we all know that's stupid.

Be Brutally Honest
If there is something there, try to make it work, because as the Neruda poem says "Love is so Short, Forgetting so Long", but if its gone, hurt us so that we wont be sad and pathetic people holding on to something we can never get back.

In ending here is a good one for broken hearted people. Though now you are broken, you will be fixed and when you are, you realize it was just that a phase were find ourselves more and be better for others.

"Tonight I Can Write"
By Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, "The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.



My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another. She will be another. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Here is the redemption part... this one is something that we should all aspire for

"If You Forget Me"
By Pablo Neruda

In English:

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists:
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

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Nikon D300


As expected, it is better than before and better than the competition. Enuff said.

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My Tarot Card

In response to my Kumare Marie's Blog entry here is mine...

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthusiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Heroes

I have a new favorite TV show, darn House MD and Supernatural eats a lot of my time already.

Anyway its about a group of people who suddenly discover they have superpowers.



Heroes on NBC

Heroes on Wikipedia